pre-school jitters as a uni student?

I have never dreaded school ever since i was a kid. In fact, i have always looked forward to a new semester or academic year. Yet ironically, i dread the new semester ahead, at an age of 23.. I totally dread fyp cuz things are not gg well. I know God will lead the way, i just hafta follow. I know i have a purpose at school and i want to embrace it.

How do we draw the line between self-absorption and caring about one's own feelings? Why do i screw up when it comes to dealing with my feelings and communication?
The search for significance should have ended with the cross, yet it continues in my life. Ok, i hand it all to you God. Lead me.