MIschung von Gefuele

It has only been a week, yet i feel as thou i have been on a roller coaster ride.

God reminded me to honour my colleagues in all circumstances, emotions. All the 'people skills, emotional quotient' the corporate world advocates are far too complicated for me, I prefer to stick to one rule of thumb -- Honor pple.

He showed me the importance of showing concern for pple.. which reminds me of a verse i once read ' People do not care how much you know, until they know how much you care'.

He drew me back to prayer, becuase I am a vine in Him and can do nth apart from Him.

God blessed me with great friends and colleagues at work. After our shopping session we had a 'take all we want on a single big plate' buffet. This abundance of food led Lisa to talk abt food in heaven, consequently we steered the conversation to telling Elisabeth more abt Christianity. So blessed to see Lisa burning to share so naturally to share abt her search for the true God.

God drew my attention to 3 people on different occasions in this week. The first was a woman who walked with a huge limp with each step she takes due to a physical defect in her legs. The second, was an albino boy who was happily talking to his mum. What great strength they displayed, i thought. (thou i felt it was the mum who prob struggled more than the lil albino boy) I dont want to be a strawberry of generation Y. I want to be a mighty durian of God.

God woos me with his gentle, unfailing love. I dont even have to pursue Him.
Recently i grew cold with how fleeting things were. But God reminded me of how exciting our lives can get, because he is the author of our life stories. Reminded me of how i used to thank God for giving me a reason to live. And if we allow Jesus to be Lord, everyday can be an adventure. That's if we are driven with a vision / purpose/ cause worth living, and see things frm God's perspective.

When i felt that my shy-ness was a barrier to me being an effective salt and light at my workplace, God told me that he wants me to depend on him, to come to him and relate to him what's on my mind. Because when i do so, things will change and it will draw me closer to him. Simple facts that we can use to advise pple, but forget abt it ourselves easily.

Had a misunderstanding with marcus, but thru it, God enabled us to understand each other deeper. Which i felt was a mini breakthrus for the few times that i got upset over things that he said/did.

Many other stuff...but nothing too insignificant for God to partner us in our life of adventure, to reveal to us his Father heart.

Ich vermisse die deutsche Sprache, obwohl mein Deutsch nicht gut ist. Aber sie reich, ich einen Tageblatt auf Deutsch zu schreiben. :P Ich fuehle ein bisschen traurig und nur Vater Gott weiss den Grund.

Gestern hatte ich einen Angsttraum. Es gabt viele erschreckende Krabben, die zu mir krabbeln! Mir rutschte das Herz in die Hose! Wenn ich aufgewacht bin, erinnere ich mich an den Traum ganz klar. Ich glaube, Gott moechte durch den Traum etwas zu mir sagen. Als ich 6 Jahre alt war, eine Krabbe, die mein Vater gekauft hat, ist entgegangen. Die Krabbe hat mich fast gebissen als ich am Boden gelegt habe. Zum Glueck hat mein Vater mich gerettet. Ich fuehle dass Gott sag: Mein Kind, Ich liebe dich und due kannst immer zu mir kommen. Rufe mich an, so will ich dir antworten.

Denn wo euer Schatz ist, da wird auch euer Herz sein.
Jetzt lese ich das 40-Tage Gebet Buch und die ist eine gute Erinnerung,dass ich meine Zeit, Energie und Geld gut aufwenden sollte.

pre-school jitters as a uni student?

I have never dreaded school ever since i was a kid. In fact, i have always looked forward to a new semester or academic year. Yet ironically, i dread the new semester ahead, at an age of 23.. I totally dread fyp cuz things are not gg well. I know God will lead the way, i just hafta follow. I know i have a purpose at school and i want to embrace it.

How do we draw the line between self-absorption and caring about one's own feelings? Why do i screw up when it comes to dealing with my feelings and communication?
The search for significance should have ended with the cross, yet it continues in my life. Ok, i hand it all to you God. Lead me.

o life.

The last time i blogged was in Germany and four months later, it's the end of the semester already. The semester was different from the past. I really enjoyed learning about world religions, human capital and engin prof because it's so relevant and interesting.. and has enabled me to see things from a wider perspective.

Received news that my jc friend Alan committed suicide during thanksgiving as well. Though i am not close to him, my heart sank and it just felt sour-ish wihtin for the next few days. He didnt get to know God before he died. Why did he choose to 'game over' so soon? And it led me to wonder if it's exactly fair that many people out there dont know God because they didnt hear the Gospel, not because they rejected Him. Wont it lead to John Calvin's theory of pre-destination? I have always thought that Calvinism was a whole load of bullshit because how can a loving God decide that certain creation of his do not get saved eventually. Of course God's ways are higher than mine and it's not something i can figure out..

And like how many people would respond to deaths, i am just a silly human caught up in the mundane things in life, that sometimes i forget the fragility of life and take things, take people for granted. i will be faithful and pray for the salvation of my friends & bro. I will be courageous and share about God when the opportunities arise.

How would it be like, should i stop breathing one day?

I had a massive headache yesterday and felt super carsick on the way to monica's house. BUT horrible feelings aside, i had super yummy pizza and strawberries for dinner with them monica's family. :D:D We watched Wallace and Gromit IN ENGLISH and i totally love the cartoon! I tried to reproduce nice pizzas today but my 'pizzas' didnt taste as nice as the ones Monica bought. sigh! I shall attempt to cook sth better tmr.

I have 10 more days in Hamburg and i must go to the lake more often! It's one of my favourite spots in harburg where i enjoy fresh, cooling air :D You dont get such nice cooling spots in Singapore :(

yipee!

this song has been playing in my head since i was making my way home from sch. :D

Anws, yesterday's learning was made more interesting as i went to nat's room to go thru the medical imaging modalities together. I had a peach and 3 pears in the middle cuz studying always makes me feel like eating.. lol. But it was kinda disastrous cuz i think my body reacts badly to a high intake of fructose. I think i kinda have a mild fructose malabsorption cuz i suffer from bloating whenever i eat too much sugary fruits.

Then today was the last lesson for com vision and i had the exam for medical imaging. It was an oral exam and despite it being a new format from the usual nus written exam style, i found it pretty ok. And Yay!! i got a 'good' grade and so this module is secured a 'S' in nus! It certainly lifted a huge burden off me cuz i couldnt attend lessons for this module at all due to a time clash with another module. Now i feel that i am better able to handle the other exams as well.. yay Praise God for his grace!

10 more days to the last day of exams! cant wait! :D